It was supposed to snow 2-4" today, NOT. We ended up with a dusting of snow and a rainy, dreary day. I had already planned on staying in and watching movies all day so thats what I did. I guy on the board that I post on gave me 120 VHS tapes so I went through them this morning and separated out the movies we already had or I didn't want and put away the ones I wanted to keep. Then I watched Contact, Persuasion, and Twister (love the flying cows). I had made turkey meat-loaf earlier and Niki made mashed potatoes and sweat and sour green beans. So we had a good dinner.

Chatted with J for a couple of hours. I am getting so frustrated and confused. Frustrated because we both definitely want to fuck each other and our schedules and the stars just aren't lining up. You can't make this stuff up. First it was Christmas and his relatives were visiting, then I went to NY, then he was sick, then he was on call for work, then he was stuck late at work basically everyday the next week and now I have my period. So pretty much for six weeks straight we have been unable to get together. Confused because even though we chat almost every night and I think have become friends I think all he wants to do is fuck me. I'm not saying that I'm looking for a relationship or even to date but why are you willing to spend hours chatting with me online but not sitting next to me at a movie or across from me at a restaurant. Maybe it's just been to long since we've seen each other face-to-face.

Talked to Ro' tonight. She hasn't found a job yet either, but may be starting one again on Monday. Maybe I will have luck next week too. I received my short term disability claim check on appeal this week. That is a slight burden lifted. I really didn't think it would be approved. Talked to Bill on Friday, Tammy and I might meet him in Richmond on Tuesday for dinner. It will probably be the last chance I get to see him before he ships out to Japan. Filled my prescriptions for the first time on the new insurance plan two of them jumped from $20 to $50. I can probably change one of them to a lower dose generic and get it cheaper but the other one has no generic or equivalent and it is my migraine medicine so I'm kinda over the barrel. Plus Dr Frazier is out of network so I need to make a $400 deductible plus pay 30% after that. Great new insurance plan.

Started a new weight loss challenge with Tammy. I'm going to lose this week. I have not done well. Haven't walked the dog all week plus ate wrong. I don't know where all my motivation went to. I need it back. I was doing so good. Should have never went to NY.