Entry for January 09, 2008
I'm worried the depression is coming back, I can't afford another bout of depression. Not just financially but in friends and family. I am just starting to grow my circle of friends and if I fall into depression that will all be lost. Why does this keep happening, I was feeling good and suddenly nothing is right with the world. I'm still doing the same things walking, eating better, and taking care of myself so why the change. Please let it just be hormonal. The end of my BC pills are Saturday and I don't think I'll be starting a new pack.

Did all my laundry and took down the Christmas decorations today. Only a couple days after little Christmas. Was hoping J would show up tonight and give me a little something something but I guess not. Maybe a quickie in the morning after Niki leaves. I need some stress relief, bad.